I learn, and I learn this continually, everytime that things seem impossible, that it is a time of becoming once again, more reliant on the Lord, and more dependant in His word. These 'crash' times, where life is too complicated to be able to sort out on my own, is also a time of increased joy, because I know what I must do, and that is to open my heart to His word, and seek Him with all my heart. I LOVE this time! Because I don't understand, and I HAVE to rely on Him! Oh I wish I did this in any case!!! How wonderful it is, when you have been far, to come home again :)